I’m moving away in a month. And I’m so excited, but I’m also going through some weird feelings..I’m starting to realize how much my life has changed since I started high school up until now. My dad left and started his new family, I ended my relationship with him, I became the person my mom needed to depend on, and we moved out of the house I grew up in into the house we have now… I realized that the ‘love of my life’ was nothing more than an insignificant boy and that even with a hard heart, I needed to start accepting only the love I deserved, I fell for a friend who showed me that there are guys who will treat me well…I became fiercely independent, I worked two jobs and I balanced school, I graduated community college with honors and I got accepted into the school of my dreams..I overcame my anxiety, I battle a painful inflammatory disease that I’ve finally started to get under control, I became a vegan, I run and exercise as much as I can, Im considering going to medical school to become a doctor and I’ve started my own company…..I reconnected with some of my old friends who I realized were the best friends, I’ve made so many new friends, I am constantly busy and making plans with people which is the total opposite of how I used to be…I’ve grown to love painting, being outside, nature, cooking, the beach, simple bonfires with my amazing friends make all the difference in my life. The best change is that I love myself now. I love myself when I walked across the stage to get my diploma as much as I loved myself when I was in my weaker moments. I have thrived and preservered through adversity, I’ve learned to trust God and myself in making my life decisions. I know that the next couple of months will bring the best that’s yet to come.

You used to be much more… “muchier.” You’ve lost your muchness.

Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland 

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  1. If you like someone, wait.
  2. Give lots of compliments, even if you’re shy. Everyone else is too.
  3. Change. Get a haircut, try new perfume, get new sheets. Become better than you were before.
  4. Eat healthier. Learn to cook something fancy.
  5. Get up earlier and watch the sun come up.
  6. Wear soft clothes, take a bath, drink something warm.
  7. Meet someone new, even just a friend.
  8. Become closer with your friends and your family. Call your mother. Cry with your best friend. Tell everyone how much you appreciate them.
  9. Keep your room clean. Buy some candles. Let the natural light in.
  10. Make a list of reasons why you’ll be better off without them. Believe they are true, because they are.
  11. Listen to new music.
  12. Write everything you’re thinking and feeling. Write letters. Write happy letters, sad letters, and angry letters, even if you’re never going to send them.
  13. It’s okay to be sad, but not forever. Sadness is not as beautiful as music makes it seem. Lack of sleep makes your eyes droopy, not deep. Wake up every morning and tell yourself you’re going to have a good day.
  14. Go to the library. Don’t forget to look in the music section.
  15. Remove them from your life. Get rid of the things they gave you if they make you sad. They’re not worth it. You will never be happy if you continue to hold on to the things that make you sad.
  16. Make new memories.
  17. Try to find something to appreciate in everything you do or experience.
  18. Being alone is okay, you don’t have to surround yourself with people.
  19. Become your own best friend. Buy yourself coffee and drink it alone in a cafe. Take your time.
  20. Learn to love every bit of yourself.

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